Unbearable Agony: A Personal Struggle With the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a gloomy Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a sudden sensation bloomed behind my right eye. It was followed by quick stabs, similar to electric shocks. As each class progressed, the pain eased and then returned with greater intensity. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took paracetamol, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks returned frequently that fall, and again in spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-on pain in class by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP finally referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically start with severe discomfort around one eye that persists up to several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the condition, and men are more often affected. Attacks typically begin with abrupt, excruciating pain focused on a single eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. I have an episodic type, which occurs in periodic bouts; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. A separate discovered 64% of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts during bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, like many causes, made things worse. After having alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often interpreted her attacks as drunken episodes. Support finally came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a national neurology center.

Still, the failure to plan daily activities around erratic pain took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The first account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a book on the topic. They linked the ailment to an evil entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Ancient medical records propose bizarre treatments for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a separate disorder, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European doctor who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by international headache committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key artery which supplies blood to the head. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the condition note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the results of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a prominent journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, identification remains slow. One man's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple surgeries before finally being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor researched his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and managing happen because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary head pain disorders, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how long? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But many first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She believes the dental profession still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in 2021; a calm advisor guided me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack passed.

National guidance on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the bouts of some people.

But leading neurologists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined clinical process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the bout determines the approach.” Brief cycles with occasional episodes are managed with acute treatment only. Longer or more intense periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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Courtney Brown
Courtney Brown

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